its been quite awhile.
i think i'm headed back towards the days where i dont pen down my thoughts word for word and every post is just a one-liner. maybe twitter got their idea from me.
ive just been enjoying myself, pursuing personal interests, being young. and my twentieth birthday was pretty boreee ring but i guess the cosine curve doesnt end in the lower portion all the time.
and
take care, you.
its early in the morning..
its been a pretty long time since the last update, which was like a month ago. hmm the past month was poker on fridays, chillout on saturday, book in on sunday and chiong monday to friday. repeat. oh yes, my new favourite card game is definitely poker. its not really about the gambling but how intricate the game can be. its emotions logic probabilty maths all combined into 7 cards which makes up for some really intense mind games.
feeling really stagnant nowadays, really lacking the drive found in my younger days. speaking of which, i will be twenty in 2 weeks time. pretty fast imho, but alas, birthdays spent in the past years were really anticlimax such as econs paper in j2, guard duty last year. so, i wonder how this year will be like.
ORD in 3 months to come. considering the fact that i've spent over 17 months in the army, this seems a short time, but time seem to really crawl in camp. pretty amazed at my ability to hibernate in camp as it does seem to speed things up while giving me some ample rest. while everybody looks forward to ORD, i am rather apprehensive about the days after ORD. and no, i will not matriculate early because i do not find the point in it if i dont want to take lessons earlier and that maybe i'll change my choice of school or take a different course.
I cant seem to blog much tonight. though i feel like blogging somemore. hmm. i guess what i really need now, is somebody to guide me, and pull me out of this mist of rot i'm in. and i need to stop dreaming of you. period.
cheers to nov13
i'm a mess
not in a fucked up, drunken, shitfaced, no money, no friends, no hope kinda way,
but more of in a emotional, basic logic, body clock, 'why the fuck am i doing this', 5 more months to ord kinda way.
i'm messed up.
save me please, yes you. i've been waiting, all this while.
i am fucking lazy and i know it and i am too lazy to change it
read the title. thats just precisely what i am. i am FUCKING LAZY. and i cant help it. okay i can help it, but i am really fucking lazy. its like a inborn thing or somewhat, and its fucking irritating sometimes. and yet, i'm too lazy to bother. ok, i know this paragraph doesnt make any sense but i bet 1 or 2 of you bitches totally feel the same as me. so there, gotcha. HAHA.
so, 21 days gone and past, i'm back in singapore from taiwan. the trip is nothing short of awesome. being the opposition force this time, it was damned relax and fun, and freedom was there, though it was controlled freedom. lol. my day in camp starts off with SOF pt, which consist of hundreds of pushups and legraises and crunches and whatnots, but it wakes the body up and keeps us fit for the rest of the day will be spent either, lazing in bed with choice of entertainment, sports, mealtimes, repeat. wah, it felt like a sports camp to me, never played such amounts of basketball and soccer while i was in the army. living conditions were pretty bad, dirty, hot, one whole company in one bunk, but the showers have hot water! pretty awesome just that the HOT weather dint really permit much use of it.
then came longwalk again. i am proud to say that i'm a longwalkchampion, completing every possible longwalk in all 3 different countries. i should be given a badge or something man. taiwan's terrain is mad, with us climbing mountains high and low and the weather was mad. i will never forget this point during the walk when all 5 of us sat down under the tree, thinking of when our resup of water will come, when the checkpoint was actually 200m ahead. LOL. then there was the imba 2hours bashing through the jungles which actually felt like an episode of man vs wild, with us balancing on waist wide rocks, crossing rivers, climbing up steep slopes. and the very awesome jeep course. our dear pointman decided to race our encik through this path which was totally off the map for 1.5km which was meant for jeeps. LOL. it was such a bitch climbing up the slopes and running down. but yeah it all went well, and thinking back, it wasnt as long as i thought it was, and ah FU never fails to boost our morale with fried cutlet, prata, and tian bu la and omg coke. such pleasures in outfield, hard to come by.
then came the enemy part. lol while it was irritating planting target boards and shit, it was all worth it when i spotted a team coming to our objective and conducted the kill. we caught many during this exercise but it was over quickly. not bad, bonded a lil with my men, and basically enjoyed the taiwan scenery from the hills.
RNR came, it was the sex. we went to some imba underwater world where there was this great whale shark which covered half the screen LOL (private joke) then it was some dream mall which really felt like a dream because there was nothing much to buy there, then came some free time which uh hem, shall stay in taiwan. (read: horses going crazy) and some dancing at lamp.
next day was some lameass theme park which was pretty fun while it lasted, though nothing beats ocean park as of now. i would say it was more of the novelty than the thrill. pagodas revenge, will never beat the space drop. dude, hanging from say, 5 storeys? will never beat 20. hahaha. then we went shih lin night market to do some shoppingz, and it was some more dancing at lava.
hmmm, pretty good trip imho, and i'm really too lazy to blog in greater detail. sigh. ok fuck it, i'm damn lazy i will publish this post now.
am back from taiwan! but my computer is down and i'm blogging this on an ibook, which i'm not very proficient in. sigh. next week is free and easy, somebody entertain me!!
i will pack my drawer soon. lots of nolstagic stuff awaits man!
hedge one ann one
a lil update, for i've seen my blog becoming stagnant after weeks of inactivity. the last post said " i'm damn sian of this sick routine" or sth like that right, guess what, it happened. wah lan eh 2 weeks never serve army sia, all because of this piggy influenza virus going about the world. yes gentlemen, i've contracted hedge one ann one man, and let me just say that this virus is rather spunky and can cause a rather intense fever that goes off and on and muscle aches that can rival my gym days in vjc. i hate to be sick man, i feel helpless, and all i can do is sleep, take medicine, and sleep somemore, sucks.
and i really have no idea who passed the virus to me.
it all happened on tuesday after 1 x 2.4km and 1 x 2km FBO fast march casevac. after the strenous activities, i felt really weak, like omgholyshit this must be the most xiong thing i've ever done after SOC. (yeah guys no more SOC for me i passed that 2 weeks ago in 8.36, something to feel good about when the SOC ground at my camp is built for "yaomings" quoted by a captain from another brigade. cheers) so after that, i went to take a shower after attending a meeting in an aircon room and it all began. IT WAS FUCKING COLD after the shower which seemed abit weird when everyone around me is covered in sweat. then i went to sleep and woke up with 38.7 degrees. cheers.
saw the MO, got 2 days MC, and after 2 days still not better, went to see my family doctor, got another 4 days MC and my throat swab was sent to tantocksengz for a check and whoala, i'm positive. wah its really a bad feeling when somebody says you're positive with something, its like, hey dude you've got aids. that kinda feeling, which, really really sucks and unbelievable in a sense. i'm like wtf man i've been in camp all day long and i get that bloody virus. fuck. so in name of social responsiblity i'm confined to home for another 5 days. pretty awesome if you ask me. anah CHAOKENG la, but wow i made use of the time indeed.
basically, i watched just about every show that's interesting to me (previously, on prison break...), slept all i wanted, improved major in DOTA (at least to me man i havent gotten a monster kill in ages until this flu LOL). and my mum took care of me through it all, ok at least most of it. i am thankful that i'm finally okay, and of course, of the amount of time i can spend at home.
wah piang eh 2 weeks never serve army leh!
pretty awesome national day weekend imho. 2 nights of alcoholic fun (ahem), some basketball, some movies and basically just doing what i've missed out due to the flu. now, taiwan's coming up, will be flying off on friday. pretty exciting, but wah the wind there so strong, how to train. sigh, yet another longwalk to complete. am looking forward to 3 weeks of overseas fun but at the same time will be missing the weekends in singapore. but its okay, because, being away from home actually makes me treasure home a lil bit more.
6 more months to ORD! its a serious "we've come so far together, one people one destiny, singapore our homeland, forever it will be!!!" LOL. half a year might not seem very short but if you compare it to 22 months, thats pretty good in my humble opinion. LOL!
ladies and gentlemen, watch this space as i convert from sergeant pang to mr pang. cheers :D
